Barbie Wedding

This truly made me laugh when I saw it on Pinterest.  This person not only organized all the positions of the dolls but took some fairly professional pictures as well.  I use to put together my own Barbie and Ken weddings on the porch of our old house on Gregwood  Place.  I still remember Mom taking me to Michael's so I could buy miniature white silk flowers for Barbie's bouquet.

http://pinterest.com/pin/55239532900662776/

Settling In

Things have gotten better.  I've learned to become a bit more patient with Max and I'm getting into a routine a little more.  The middle of the week can be a bit rough at times, especially in the evenings and when Jake is only home for an hour and I'm trying to get dinner ready for him before he leaves for class. But life has become fairly predictable.  Dex has this awful habit of only sleeping for like 40 minutes and then wakes up crying.  I'm hoping this phase will end soon,  the baby books say he just needs to cry it out and that I need to respect his need to sleep.  If he were a bit older I probably wouldn't care as much, but he's still just a baby so it's so hard.  On a good note, He's been sleeping through the night for the past week.  if he goes to bed at 8 PM he wakes up at about 4 AM to eat and then sleeps until 8 the following morning, but if he falls asleep late he will sleep until 6 AM and then go back to sleep for a few more hours.

We leave for Oregon this Friday.  It will be nice to have a big change of scenery and to get away for a little bit.  Unfortunately I'm not looking forward to the long drive with two kids in the back.  The trip is going to be really bad getting there, but I hope as soon as we arrive they aren't thrown off of schedule too much so we can enjoy our time there.

On a final note, can I just say how much easier it was to lose weight when I only had Max to care for.  I see why so many women let themselves go the more children they have, cause it's hard to find the time to do it, especially when all you want to do in your free time is take a nap or clean, or on days when Jake is home I just want to spend time with him and not leave to go to the gym.  But I am averaging about 4-5 workouts a week, and we haven't been eating out and I've cut back on sugar a bunch.  But the older I get the harder it is for me to lose weight,  It's times like these that I truly envy the flat skinny girls.

Here Comes Dex

I was really tired...we had to be there at like 5 45 AM and I didn't get any sleep the night before.

The vinyl printout Jake put up in Max's room.   This is one of my favorite books. 

Max hates putting on his onesie PJs, so Jake put on his  to  get him more excited about it. 

Big bro and little bro.

Thumbs up!

What a poser. 

zucchini from our garden. 

Dex wasn't so happy. 

Life is a Bit Crazy.

I understand why women get postpartum depression so often.  I myself have never fully been depressed.  I have been sad at times throughout my life, but a little emotion just reminds us all that we are human.  Having a child even if it's your first, second, third, etc....changes the routine that you have come accustomed to.  A change in routine can be a major change in ones life.  I myself do not have feelings of sadness, but I do find my emotions leading more towards anger.  I am extremely impatient, and I spend much of my days alone in my house or outside on the playground. When I say "alone" I mean away from any other adults.  Max has this bad little habit of ignoring me when I ask him to do something/stop doing something, until I sometimes raise my voice to get his attention or threaten him with a consequence.  I'm realizing this weekend that it is something I need to work on and find a better tactic to get his attention.  He loves his little brother, which is great but I think Dex is constantly wondering why this kid is pestering him when he's trying to sleep.  I'm waiting for Max's love for Dexter to ware off so I don't have to constantly monitor the two of them all the time, at least for Dexter's safety.

 I look forward to when Jake comes home, but then am disappointed when I find out that he has to go do homework or wants to rest for a minute or go to the bathroom or do any other thing someone would want to do when they come home from work or school instead of just arriving at the door and asking, "I'm home!  Is there anything I can do to help you?".  Oh wouldn't that be nice.  I do this selfish little dialogue in my head imagining what I would say to someone to make them understand that I do everything around here and am extremely unappreciated.  Then I usually come to my senses and realize how foolish I'm being.

last month was our 4 year anniversary and I have felt that although Jake is still in school, our life is fairly smooth and we haven't had too many challenges in life.  I think heavenly Father was letting me off the hook until now.  I feel things have been extremely difficult and they won't get any better until probably Christmas time.  I say that because that's when the semester will end and my husband will be around much more.  But nothing is permanent and things can change if you make them.  But I look forward to all the possible events that will be coming up.

1. Jake may be promoted to the data base administrator position at work.  This would be great for bumping up his resume and it would include a raise as well, I'm hoping a substantial one because more money would always be nice.

2.  Max will be turning three the end of this year and then will enter primary.

3.  Jake will start filling out applications for Graduate school the end of this year.  The process will be quite annoying, but at least it means we are moving on with our lives!

4.  As the weeks continue to pass since Dex's birth my body will continue to turn back to normal and my health and stamina will continue to return.  My Bodybugg is helping me stay on track.  I've already lost 3 lbs...which isn't much.....but a huge feat for me.  

5.  Come November we have the chance to Vote and hopefully things will start to "Change"  again.