I would have to say that January is one of my least favorite months. The holidays are over, it's usually bleak and cold outside, taxes must be done, and school starts again. I really dislike January, however, February is a great month. I mean Valentine's Day is where it's at. Jacob has already asked my mom if she could have a sleep over that night with max at her house so he and I can stay out late and enjoy sleeping in the day after, even though we usually sleep in until 8 30 on Saturdays and Sundays. Max likes just chillin in his crib and playing with his blankets and he stays really quiet, until I here him giggling and saying, "MOMMY...giggle giggle....MOMMY"!! That sound of him calling me by my title will never leave my memory.
I know all of this is going to change real soon. It's time to begin potty training and to move Max over to a toddler bed. I think both are going to be huge adjustments for him, but I'm starting to think we should move him into a bed before we move him off the diapers. I just don't think he grasps the whole potty thing and being the stubborn child that he is, I fear that he will dislike it and not take to it even more if I do it before he completely understands its, but he's definitely going to be potty trained before the end of the summer, for specific reasons. I'm trying to take it one step at a time. My recent goal has been to not let him drink too much before bed or take his sippy to bed with him, even if it is water. I want his bladder to adjust to not just going in his pants as much during naps and in the middle of the night. Besides it's a comfort thing, there is no way that he is that thirsty.
So far being pregnant again has been great. This time a round, I'm not working nor am I in school so I have a lot of time to nap, while Max is napping. I didn't get any morning sickness, but my hormones have been a little more crazy this time, insinuating to me that of course the baby is going to be a girl. But who can really know that for sure. I'm almost convinced it's going to be a girl, we need more girls on my side of the family, because so far we only have boys. Last week we went up to the outlet mall because Jake found a pair of pants up there that he really liked and I wanted him to get a couple more pairs. I learned real quick that if you can ever find pants that fit Jake where his butt isn't hanging out all the time, but maybe just 80% of the time you have a winner. So we stocked up. But Jake is smart enough to never let me go up there by myself because I find way too many deals. There weren't a lot of sales going on but I found a cute little Halloween onesie for a girl for .80 and another little girl onesie with long sleeves for 2.00 at Baby Gap. I couldn't pass up those deals and if we have a boy then we are only out $3.50. I guess we won't know for another 5 weeks what the sex will be, but I can tell Jake really wants to know. He's willing to go to one of those places that takes the creepy 3D image pictures to find out, but I think we should just wait. I'm definitely prepared to take this pregnancy one step at a time.
I went and met my doctor a few weeks ago. I wanted to go to an OBGYN this pregnancy instead of a Fam practitioner. Mostly because I was high risk with Max and had to go to all these extra doctors appointments because a family practitioner wasn't prepared for my condition. Going to my new doc will cut my time at the hospital down a lot if I get sick again. Unfortunately, at my first appointment I waited almost an hour after my appointment time began to see her. It was crazy. I found out that she is in high demand and also is the director of the whole department so everyone wants to see her, but I got lucky because I found out that she goes to the Madsen Clinic by my house every Monday so I set up my next 2 appointments there. The clinic is like 5 minutes walking from my house and isn't as crazy as the hospital so Max can come without going crazy and I don't have to worry about annoying hospital parking.
I met with the nurse practitioner my first visit and everything was going well, until they reminded me how awful my last labor and delivery was with Max. Then she flat out told me I wouldn't be a good candidate for a vaginal delivery this time. It seems like there are so many different opinions out in the medical field. But the first thing my doctor asked me when she entered the room was "How many children do you want to have?" All I thought was I don't know. I mean our future isn't set in stone and probably won't be for a few more years. So I just said "Probably no more than four". That's kind of my standard answer. How true it is, I don't really know. She reminded me that the more c-sections I have the more damaging it is to my uterus depending on where the placenta attaches and that's just luck of the draw. I started imagining a smooth natural delivery when I found out my friend Rachel was going to try for one after having a C-section. But that thought clearly left my mind when I found out she could never fully dilate and the same problem occurred as last time and then she had to have another c-section. I don't know what's really going to happen. Only one thing is for sure. If I have to be induced again at 37 weeks because I'm too sick to carry this baby full term, than I am having a C-section! I am not going through all that again. Hell no. It seems easier for everyone if I had a date set and we just went in and this kid came out surgically, but will it be more difficult for me in the long run? It's hard to say right now. I'm just glad that I'm out of the danger zone and that we have a healthy heart beat. I don't want to think about July or August when this kid is coming out for a little bit longer.
